My experience with love is extremely short. Three people deep, only one of those being a healthy normal non-traumatizing relationship. I’ve been on a few dates (dates being a loose term in some instances), but I’ve never quite navigated that whole world well.
I would say I’m picky, but in some ways its more complicated than that. I have a hard time being attracted to people. Like genuinely omg I wanna talk to that person attracted. I can process that a person is relatively attractive but nothing clicks. The only people it’s ever happened with were….well, those three people. And if I’m not attracted to that person, well, I don’t know. Do I try anyways even if I don’t feel anything?
But I love love.
I’m a hopeless romantic, have been since a kid. I love romance and stories of true love (even though my idea of that in real life differs so much) and fighting against all odds and unconventional meetings. I love best friend soul mate stories and slow burns and just romance. And I’m tired of trying to act like I don’t because it’s not seen as “cool” or whatever internalized misogyny bullshit.
I also am deeply aware that my fascination with love basically comes from the fact I am affection deprived and have been emotionally stunted most of my life and deeply crave human contact and affection but am unable to ask for it point blank because yay! Issues!
Nonetheless, this is who I am. Someone who wants love and affection, but find it difficulty just finding someone, much less being vulnerable enough to open myself up to it. And maybe I’m tired of just reading and hearing about fictional stories and I’m jaded about real experiences. I don’t know.
But I want to. I want to live and experience vicariously through other people while I figure out my own shit.
So I have an idea. And it needs other people’s help. Your help, specifically.
I wanna hear your love stories. And not just the success stories but the failures too. I wanna hear dating mishaps, sex mishaps, the ones that got away, the ones that stayed, the ones you left, the ones that left you, the ones that ended in tragedy, the ones that turned ugly, and the happily ever afters. I wanna hear your experiences with love.
I don’t know if I’ll just make a second blog or hell, maybe a podcast (which is a whole other avenue I haven’t delved into because I sound like a 12 year old). I’ve got bare bones right now. But hey, I have an idea and I’m gonna run with it. If nothing comes of it, then so be it. I’ll figure out some way to use what I get.
They can be anonymous (I can make you a pseudo-name) or not, it’s up to you. You can send everything you’ve got or just one. But I want to read them and share them. Because we’re all just fumbling in the dark here, but at least we can feel like we’re all stumbling together.
Yeah, I know, this isn’t my usual subject or field of interest (that you know of!) but I’m at a time when I have no projects and I’m just trying to figure my life out.
So. If you want to help me with my idea, you can send your love/romance/dating/sex story to SubmitYourStory@yahoo.com. Or put it in my contact form. I’ll get it either way.
And feel free to let your friends know. We’ll cross our fingers and hope it goes better than that one time I started a Patreon lol.
Let’s see where this goes.